Pattern - Repeat

I’m become more and more obsessed with abstract pattern lately. It’s like I just throw whatever I want on the canvas and just go with it. Spending time with textures, colors, compositions and let them do for their self instead of lead them into a piece is a great way for me to overcome block that often hits without warning. 

A Full-Time Job For Me?

I’m called for an interview with a promising company today! Wow. I thought I would never even get a full-time job like ever.

A bit of fact about me:

Since I graduated last August, I honestly didn’t even apply to any company for any full time job. Why? Because I don’t want to leave my parents. I’m sure I’ve mentioned about it before. I love my parents that much that I don’t even care if people start calling me Daddy’s Girl or Mama’s Favorite Daughter for not wanting to break my comfort zone. But my hometown, the place that I’ve been living in for almost forever now, is a barren land. There’s no such people who run business who think design and illustration is a thing here. Those include my parents and all their ally, to be honest. People just think I’m only playing around in my studio everyday. I draw upon request, but that’s that. Salary by commission, that’s not a real career. How will I make a living with it. They’re worried about my future and slowly push me to get a full time job. Especially because I score a good grade in my GPA *ahem* and not bragging it on a resume or cover letter is a waste of sweat extortion. And I do appreciate their concerns. A lot. Me, my self, is actually been worrying too. Mostly because I don’t always draw a masterpiece and there are dozen of other artists out there who compete for a job with me.

In short I was frightened at time when I decided to at least trying once to apply for a job like what common fresh graduates usually do. So I start looking for career opportunity from any promising company in the nearest city from my hometown. And I just find one who may suits me. And I go with it. The lazy part about it is creating the resume and portfolio, and the laziest part is writing a cover letter. It took an entire day to complete all of them before I send them out to that company without hoping too much.

And today they are calling me! 

This is a foreign Dutch company and I was applying for marketing communication staff position who handle all their marketing design and publication stuffs. If this one succeed, that means I will be moving to another city. ANOTHER BIGGER CITY. Not that big, actually. But quite big enough to be able to watch world’s latest movie in the cinema (seriously, my hometown is really that small, it doesn’t even have any urban entertainment service anywhere; including no up-to-date bookstore and no comfy coffee shop). And that also means I will be living my own life in that new city. Starting out my life once again and all of its things. But once again, if the interview will went well.

So what’s the point of these? I don’t know though. Maybe it’s okay to leave my parents now because my sister is assigned to work in our hometown by her company. She will be in charge for accompanying my parents in their daily basis from now on. And also maybe it is really the time for me to bravely get out from my comfort zone. Who knows… There are plenty of exciting stuffs for me remains undercover until I’m fully ready and prepared.

Pattern - Triangle

Yay I love pattern! Whenever I am in a store that sells stuffs with beautiful patterns, I can’t help but spending hours just looking at each details. It looks simple and easy, but it definitely requires serious talent to create a nice one! 

This pattern is inspired by simple things, simple objects. Oh, I just love it. I’m going to draw more patterns!

Draw Draw Draw
"Doesn’t matter how it turned out, as long as I finished what I started."
I used to think that my drawings are bad. That I can’t find the right composition, the colors are just wrong, shallow concept, etc… in short, I never really happy with the result. It gets me depressed and does feel scary at times!
But I believe there is nothing wrong with throwing up creativity, even if it just turned out really bad. How will I ever make a good drawing if I never try and just give up over small failure? Probably never.
When I decided to start my daily drawing project, I give myself a permission to make "bad art" which is still better than no art at all. I don’t draw to please others, I don’t draw to compete others artist, I don’t draw and think whether a piece will sell or not, I just do it for myself.

Draw Draw Draw

"Doesn’t matter how it turned out, as long as I finished what I started."

I used to think that my drawings are bad. That I can’t find the right composition, the colors are just wrong, shallow concept, etc… in short, I never really happy with the result. It gets me depressed and does feel scary at times!

But I believe there is nothing wrong with throwing up creativity, even if it just turned out really bad. How will I ever make a good drawing if I never try and just give up over small failure? Probably never.

When I decided to start my daily drawing project, I give myself a permission to make "bad art" which is still better than no art at all. I don’t draw to please others, I don’t draw to compete others artist, I don’t draw and think whether a piece will sell or not, I just do it for myself.

Looking for Idea
I’ve been thinking about starting a daily drawing project. I will try to draw anything, really. And now I’m thinking of sharing my daily drawing along with my daily journal post on tumblr.
Though I don’t know what to draw today, maybe I’m just looking for ideas and come up with this sketch. No push to make it masterpiece, just draw and draw and draw. I really want to enjoy the process and make it less like a chore :)

Looking for Idea

I’ve been thinking about starting a daily drawing project. I will try to draw anything, really. And now I’m thinking of sharing my daily drawing along with my daily journal post on tumblr.

Though I don’t know what to draw today, maybe I’m just looking for ideas and come up with this sketch. No push to make it masterpiece, just draw and draw and draw. I really want to enjoy the process and make it less like a chore :)

Sadly, I heard a particularly disturbing child sex abuse being reported again today.
The saddest part about it is that case like this is nothing new! I did some researches quite long ago for my Communication of Advertising class (I made PSA about child abuse) and found that the number of children falling victim to violence continued to rise year by year and never once showed a decrease. Ironically, children have long been the victim of sexual violence by the people they know.
The experience of child abuse infringe upon the right to a safe and free from violence childhood that every child should has.
Please stop child abuse now!

Sadly, I heard a particularly disturbing child sex abuse being reported again today.

The saddest part about it is that case like this is nothing new! I did some researches quite long ago for my Communication of Advertising class (I made PSA about child abuse) and found that the number of children falling victim to violence continued to rise year by year and never once showed a decrease. Ironically, children have long been the victim of sexual violence by the people they know.

The experience of child abuse infringe upon the right to a safe and free from violence childhood that every child should has.

Please stop child abuse now!

Anonymous asked:

what is your biggest fear?

I used to be feared of many earthly things like being hurt, being rejected, bad temptation, and even change. I’m not saying that I am not scared of anything anymore now but I think things that I should fear the most is the fear it self. It is really time consuming and most of time I find it unworthy.

Late Night Devotional

Let’s be honest, at some point in our life we have an attitude problem: pride, jealousy, impatience, anger, gossip, broken promises, and even wrong addiction that has been taken control your mind. Habits like these have things in common: THEY HURT YOU. THEY HURT OTHERS.

Let’s be honest again that we will never be able to overcome them by ourself alone. You probably have determined to change but often you find yourself saying

"I’ve tried everything but nothing helps. It happens so regularly that it’s unevitable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is always there to trip me up. I know that I need to be delight in God’s will but it’s just pretty obvious that not all parts of me joins in that delight. Some parts of me are just covertly rebel that when I least expect it, they take charge."

I feel like I know the struggle. I completely undergo them all my life. Just like you, I tried and tried and tried to fight the battle. One thing that I learned is that I have Him, my God, Jesus. Because he loves me so much and unconditionally, He would be always willing to help me after I’ve messed up again and again.

Recovery is a process. When developing habits took time, overcoming it will too.